Women Of Destiny

yii it's been so long since i've posted. haha.

i've tried asking close to about 4 friends to come for the christmas my hope party, and so far none can come at all. life can be a little sad sometimes. the worst part was this:

me:wanna come for a christmas party? it's on sat (yada on with details)
friend: oh really? haha when and where? and with who?(and asks more stuff)
me: haha just my friends. there'll be about 50 people, and 2/3rds are quys if you don't mind
(and yes i tell them this for i know some of my friends have mild guy phobia due to their overstay in girls' schools. ok i'll admit i want to show them the pull factor besides the food, but not that we're desperate or anything, since raging hormones does all that to you)
friend:*seems rather interested* ooh ok. oh wait is it by your church?
me: um yeah
friend:*awkwardly* sorry, no thanks
me:*disappointed, but tries not to show it* ok, sure. hey wanna grab some food? you look hungry!

and then i desperately try to change the subject.
of course i am trying to. who tells you you look hungry. as if you can tell.
anyhow i feel so disppointed. people want the party but resist when they hear the word 'church'. really are we that scary? do we throw jesus into their faces? i know we can be a little creepy but honestly i think we as christians need to know.
oh bother suddenly i feel so annoyed. why does this always happen. i just asked my senior to come, and i hope she does. it's almost social suicide in my school to do stuff like that, but ah well. whoever loses his life will gain it, whoever loses a friendship may hopefully restore his with God. still i can almost forsee myself without friends to the party. almost as always. gaah. hopefully i can be a good mother hen and will not miss out on the mighty harvest.
alright, i must keep faith and pray. yes i must. i'm sorry but my posts do have the tendency to have this whole self-motivation section to it. even if no one comes i can still go early and help clean up.
after all, not all superheroes flash underwear while having public displays of violence with baddies.

love
brenda